I thought I am healed. But I am still broken.
I think I can never be whole in this lifetime.
My relief will certainly come in the afterlife.
Not here. Not now. Not ever on this earth.
I tried to cry, but no tears come out.
So this is what deep pain means.
A well so deep, I can not see its source.
It is as if I’m drowning in a stormy ocean
One cannot fathom how it all began.
I am torn. I am broken.
No one knows how I truly feel.
I may look strong. But I am at my weakest.
No one knows the pain I am in.
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Penned a month ago. I don’t remember now what this was all about. But when the pain strikes, it surely hits me hard. Some of my most poignant poetry comes from my deepest pains.