Pain

I thought I am healed. But I am still broken.

I think I can never be whole in this lifetime.

My relief will certainly come in the afterlife.

Not here. Not now. Not ever on this earth.

I tried to cry, but no tears come out.

So this is what deep pain means.

A well so deep, I can not see its source.

It is as if I’m drowning in a stormy ocean

One cannot fathom how it all began.

I am torn. I am broken.

No one knows how I truly feel.

I may look strong. But I am at my weakest.

No one knows the pain I am in.

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Penned a month ago. I don’t remember now what this was all about. But when the pain strikes, it surely hits me hard. Some of my most poignant poetry comes from my deepest pains.

Random Thoughts Part 2

And my mind just couldn’t stop yet.

Eto pa ang dagdag muni-muni ko sa Calatagan trip ko with my dad.

So here goes:

1. Long rides are opportunities to engage and connect with your travel buddy. Unplug from your devices.
2. Magiging core memory ko ang bus convos ko with my dad. Rare moments to talk about family, work, motivations, frustrations and yes, pati ang trending AI ChatGPT. Yes, I got my geekiness from him.
3. Those who have less in life are the ones who have more to give. Dahil alam nila ang pakiramdam ng walang-wala.
4. Lahat ng problema may solusyon. Open communication is the key. If all else fails, magreklamo sa kapitan ng barangay. Hehe. 😅
5. May mga mababait at grasyosang government staff. Meron din mga antipatika. Ikaw na bahala dumiskarte pano sila pakitunguhan para maabot mo business goals mo. Mahalaga, intact ang beauty at mood mo. 😅
6. Hindi masamang magbigay ng labis sa inaasahan sa mas nakakababa sa atin. Mas mabuting magbigay ng extra para di sila madala na tumulong sa atin.
7. Wag maarte sa pagkain. Kung ano ang meron, yun ang biyaya sa araw na yun.
8. Tulad ng mga daan sa kalye, sa buhay natin ay may mahahantungan tayong “fork in the road”. Alamin mo ang “life direction” mo at magdesisyon ng tama nang di maligaw.
9. Kung maligaw ka man at di sigurado sa binabaan, “call a friend” lang at may sasaklolo sa ‘yo para ihatid ka sa iyong pupuntahan.
10. In life, like in travel; you will meet new people in new places. You can choose to let them in your lives and keep them as friends for life. Or let them just be visitors in your time and space. Bottomline, we are all connected beings designed by our Lord to relate with one another.

At dito na nga po ang ending ng Calatagan life lessons ko. 😉

Till then!