This is the second part of the story I shared with all of you yesterday at https://thevelveteenleah.wordpress.com/2014/02/19/depression-breaking-the-silence/
Written in poetry form, I penned this after going through what seemed to be an endless experience of agony. It was quite cathartic for me to write out what happened to me back then and the lessons I’ve learned in the process.
Here it is.
GLIMPSE OF DEATH
By Leah Lyn E. Albano
Tragedy struck in her young life.
Hopeless, desperate, depressed,
She attempted to end all the pain.
Caught unaware that her dreams will be shattered.
Taken by surprise that her life will be put on hold.
She was a soldier caught without her defenses.
Blinded with the sinfulness of her nature,
She hid in her cocoon,
Not speaking a word, holding it all in her heart.
Confused, overwhelmed, frustrated.
No one can paint a smile on her face.
Tears…all tears were flowing from within.
Abyss of depression, the horror of it all!
She was in the valley of the shadow of death.
“Where was God? Why me, Lord?” she asked.
The questions were difficult,
And the answers remained elusive.
She was at the tunnel, waiting for the light to dawn again.
Life, for her, stopped.
But the clock remained ticking.
Her loved ones remained loving her.
Amidst the void she was feeling,
God was miraculously at work.
Angels protected her from dying.
The journey uphill was a difficult struggle.
It was not without much pain and crying,
When she emerged from the deep recesses of her sorrow.
It was not without doubts and much questionings,
When all the anger and bitterness surfaced.
The ugly side of life haunted her to no end.
But the terror of it all had to happen,
For her to fully face her sinfulness,
For her to fully receive God’s grace and mercy.
“Christ died for the real me,
Wounds, bruises, scars and all!”
A declaration of hope … the light is finally seen.
Traversing the road leading her to a glimpse of death
Was no defeat at all.
That death led her to savor the sweet taste of life anew!
January 25, 1998
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